Can you give me hope?

don't give me god, or bullshit, basically, i moved to LA from the midwest and I hate myself and what i've done with myself. I want to be on stage more than anything in the world. I want to die. please text me a non-god message to give me a breath of fresh air. i cant stand life and i have no one to call. i don't need attention or maybe i do. i don't know! text if you feel like it, but i won't call back; 605-431-4184. i hate life! i'm not suicidal; i'm on meds and talking to doctors and ****, just not feeling so hot... mer...